1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
This makes me so happy,the God of the universe loves me and knows me intimately. There is nothing I can hide from Him and I perform for an audience of one.
The problem is that perform doesn’t even say it correctly… perform implies I can do something on the outside that I do not feel on the inside which is untrue. God sees our heart and truly, the sorry state of our own heart can negate all that we do!
So many superstars and politicians and pastors seem to be apologizing for what they have said… but truly, I think most people aren’t sorry they said it, they are sorry that they were caught and others didn’t like it.
We tend to say what we mean and the human heart is pretty mean. Are most of them truly sorry… maybe for the consequences but I don’t know about what they said.. that is for God to judge.
It is getting past the facade that it the challenge.
Knowing that God sees our heart and we cannot hide a thing from Him. He sees what we are when we lean back in our bed at night and look at the ceiling and think for a moment… that is where he sees. The other stuff doesn’t really matter a lot — he’s not a macro level or even micro level observer… he is a heart-level observer and that is the scary part.
When we realize that, we know that nothing we could ever do would be good enough for God and that we are in dire need of a Savior. We know that we need God.
I’m so thankful for a heart-level God that loves me as I am and helps me through this struggle of a life because yes, this life is a struggle.
Keep the Faith in the One who Answers Prayer.